The storm did not arrive with thunder.
It arrived as a simple thought.
I was going about my day when a
familiar urge appeared. Someone I knew was going to see a person I cared about.
For a brief moment, I considered asking them to pass along a greeting on my
behalf.
Nothing dramatic. Just a
"good afternoon."
Yet within minutes, my mind had
turned a small thought into a committee meeting.
Would it be appreciated?
Would it be awkward?
Would it seem thoughtful?
Would it seem needy?
Would it change anything?
The strange thing about storms is
that they rarely begin at full strength. Most begin as a gust. A passing cloud.
A shift in pressure so subtle that you almost miss it.
The first sign is often not
panic. It is permission.
The moment we grant a thought
permission to linger, it starts inviting friends. Soon, there is a whole
gathering. Possibilities arrive. Fears arrive. Hopes arrive. Everyone of them
wants a seat at the table.
The original thought gets buried
beneath the discussion.
What started as "Should I
send a greeting?" quietly becomes "What does this mean about
us?" and then "What if..." and then "Perhaps..."
The storm grows.
I used to think maturity meant
learning how to stop these storms from forming. I am no longer convinced.
Thoughts arrive uninvited.
Feelings do not request approval before they knock.
Perhaps maturity is noticing the
first drop of rain and recognising it for what it is.
A thought.
Not a command.
A feeling.
Not a verdict.
An impulse.
Not an obligation.
That afternoon, I did not send
the greeting.
Not because sending it would have
been wrong. Not because the feeling behind it was wrong.
I simply realised that I was
standing at the very beginning of a storm. The weather had not changed yet.
There was still time to choose whether I wanted to walk into it.
So I stayed where I was.
The thought came.
The thought stayed.
The thought left.
And the sky remained intact.
Nugget: Not every feeling needs an action. Sometimes wisdom is recognising the first drop of rain before it convinces you that a flood is coming.
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