I Have Decided to Change

I have decided to change.

Not into somebody perfect.
Not into somebody unrecognisable.
Just someone lighter.

I am tired of carrying every disappointment like a personal failure. Tired of overthinking simple things until they become emotional mountains. Tired of always being strong, even when my mind quietly wants rest.

I want to change from constantly surviving to occasionally living.

From reacting to everything
To understanding that not everything deserves my energy.

From always trying to explain myself
To becoming comfortable with being misunderstood sometimes.

From holding pain too tightly
To allowing myself heal properly.

I have realised something recently.
Some of us are exhausted not because life is impossible, but because internally we never stop fighting. Even in peaceful moments, our minds are still preparing for war.

That kind of living drains the soul slowly.

So yes, I have decided to change.

I want softer days.
Clearer thoughts.
Healthier boundaries.
Better reactions.
More honesty with myself.

And maybe change does not always begin with loud decisions. Maybe sometimes it begins quietly. A tired person sitting alone somewhere finally admits:

“I cannot keep living like this.”

Nugget:
Growth is sometimes less about becoming more, and more about finally becoming free.