The road into Jeea always looks longer at dusk.
That evening, the sky had not
made up its mind. It held a soft light, not quite day, not yet night. The kind
of light that makes distance difficult to measure. John sat in the passenger
seat, phone in hand, map open, signal flickering between strength and silence.
“You sure this is the turn?” the
driver asked.
John did not answer immediately.
He zoomed in, zoomed out, checked the pin again. The road ahead curved out of
sight, bordered by half-built fences and quiet plots that gave nothing away.
“I think so,” he said, then
paused. “No. I don’t know. But it’s the next thing in front of us.”
They took the turn.
For a few minutes, no one spoke.
The tyres rolled over uneven patches, the car adjusting to the road as it
revealed itself in fragments. John kept glancing between the screen and the
windscreen, as though one would eventually confirm the other.
After a while, he exhaled.
“This is how it feels sometimes,”
he said, almost to himself. “You don’t really know where the road ends. You
just know the next bend.”
The driver chuckled. “Oga, if we
wait to see the full road, we will not move at all.”
John smiled faintly. That landed
somewhere deeper than the moment required.
He locked his phone and leaned
back. “Let me ask you something,” he said. “When you drive a route you don’t
know, what do you rely on?”
The driver shrugged. “What I can
see. And small experience. You look well, you move small small. If anything
change, you adjust.”
“What about when you think the
road might be bad ahead?”
“You think, yes. But you don’t
drive based on thinking. You drive based on what is there.”
John nodded slowly.
For most of that week, his mind
had been louder than necessary. Every decision felt like it carried ten unseen
outcomes. Every plan seemed fragile. He had tried to solve everything before
starting anything. It had left him suspended, busy in thought, still in
movement.
He reopened his phone, but this
time, he did not zoom all the way out. He focused on the small stretch ahead.
The blue line did not show the whole journey. Just the next few turns.
“What can I do today that still
makes sense, no matter how this plays out?” he murmured.
The question felt different from
the others he had been asking. It did not demand certainty. It only demanded
honesty.
Send the message. Confirm the
meeting. Show up at the location. Speak to who is present.
Simple things. Within reach.
He realised then how much weight
he had been carrying that did not belong to the present. Outcomes he had
imagined. Conversations that had not happened. Failures that existed only as
projections.
He let some of them go, not
dramatically, just by refusing to hold them as facts.
They approached a fork in the
road. One path looked smoother. The other, narrower, less certain.
The driver slowed down. “Which
one?”
John checked the map again. It
lagged, then refreshed.
“The right,” he said.
The driver turned, without
ceremony.
“You’re not worried?” John asked.
“I am careful,” the driver
replied. “But if I worry too much, I will miss the road.”
John laughed, a quiet release.
There was something about that
balance. A firm hand on the wheel. An open mind to adjust. Not rigid, not
careless. Just present enough to respond.
As they drove on, the road began
to make more sense. Landmarks appeared. A signboard here. A familiar gate
there. The uncertainty did not disappear all at once. It thinned out, almost
unnoticed, as movement continued.
“Funny thing,” John said, “I’ve
done this before.”
“Which one?”
“This feeling. Not knowing fully.
Still moving. Somehow getting there.”
The driver nodded. “That one no
be new thing.”
And that was it.
Uncertainty had felt like a
stranger only because he had forgotten his own history with it. Forgotten how
many times he had stepped into incomplete pictures and still found his way
through.
The car slowed as they approached
SD Bus Stop. The location was just ahead now. Clear. Visible.
John looked out the window, then
back at his phone, then out again. The two finally agreed.
He smiled.
Not because the road had been
fully revealed, but because it no longer needed to be.
They parked. He stepped out,
straightened his shirt, and took a brief pause before walking in. Not to gather
certainty, but to acknowledge presence.
Some journeys teach you
less about where you are going and more about how you move when you do not
fully know.
This was one of them.
Nugget: You do not conquer
uncertainty by solving it. You outgrow it by continuing to move.

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